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Woot woot, move over that ass too fat [20 Apr 2004|05:47am]
[ mood | awake ]

xXXALERTXXx

Jaydubbs, while still in existence, will no longer be my journal name. My new name is:

a_fatal_mistake


Please add it and comment on all my hard work. I think it looks pretty PIMP.

Much love.
g

[19 Apr 2004|03:31pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

It's 6:35, do you know where your kids are?
I hope they're causin' some trouble...

The epitome of amazing weekend was just experienced by your's truly and I am still starry eyed and sedate from it. A-MAZ-ING!

I have a new game plan for the summer:
WORK AT RITA'S WITH BRYAN
WORK AT MIDNIGHTSUN WITH COLETTE
MAKE A LOT OF MONEY
BE ABLE TO GO ON TRIP NEXT SUMMER

Yes, well... to sum things up, life is nice when it's smiling at you and it's a bitch when it's not, so there. I'm seein' pearly whites right now, so eat it if you've got a problem with that. If you don't... come get your free hug ♥

13 days of classes left...
LiveJournal is going to go under EXTREME makeover soon
My heart is still beating for one boy in particular.
I am ready for summer.
It's gorgeous out.
Getting ready to overhaul this boot-ass room of our's.
Really LOUD music kickin' like whoa... mwah ha ha ha I'm sure all the people on my floor hate me right now. But I know they don't... *glares* right???!!!??

Yes, well it's cleaning time, then workout time, then homework time, then sleepy time.

Words of advice day 1
Kill those who annoy you.

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Why do the nights have to end while these days press forth? [16 Apr 2004|02:31pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Drinkin' beers in bed and watching TV with the Allie... fun times. <3
Callin' people, IMin' people, SCREAMIN' at people... just to turn our light off, so we didn't have to get out of bed. HAHAHAHA I <3 it like whoa. We are officially the laziest pieces of shit ever made. Woooo!

Went to get my bag from Pat's and he's a scumbag. I might hire Evan for his killing services. Mwah ha ha ha! That would be funny. Pat would see him, shit himself, run away, then DIE! hahahaha! No way, Evan shouldn't beat up boys for me... I'll do it. Except he'd get a big BONER from it and I'd break it off.. mwah ha ha ha! I miss Evan... he makes me giggle. I am going to see him in... 1 hour... down with Nermin! Woot woot!

Going to Andover to Evan's parents quickly, then I'm going to WOOOOOOOOSTER with the boys for Avenged Sevenfold, My Chemical Romance, Alexisonfire, and some other band. Wooooo! I'm excited I like music and music likes me... I hope. I'll scratch it when it's itchy and hug it when it's lonely. I am happy.

Whoa good mood, where'd you come from?

I want to visit Bryen. Maybe we'll do that. Maybe not tho. If not, at least I got to see him last night briefly. *ferret noise*

Stoooooooopid me forgot where my ID is, left it in the room, or at Evan's and I can't eat, so I'm workin' up a fierce hunger. I got to talk to my weeeee Bryan last night. He's amazing and I miss him. He should quit school with me and we should get famous and throw gold coins to the little people from atop an elephant... umm... all of a sudden, we're Aladdin. That's cool. Prince ALI Marvelous HE ALIaBUABUA... or whatever.

♥Just because I can!♥

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And with every heavy blink of my eyes, my heart grows that much fonder... [14 Apr 2004|02:27pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

♥Evan♥ lives in Rhode Island for real now!
I visited him last night. We were going to unpack some of his stuff, clean, and do some decorating, but... we didn't get to.
Much fun and Army of Darkness tho! Hanging out. I had a good time. Except for being sad.

I ♥ Misha! *meow*

I slept there last night and then the wee boy of my dreams drove me back right in time for class. O me o my... I want to kiss this boy for the rest of my life. I've never felt this love before and I can't get enough. *kiss*

JayJ JayJ JayJ JayJ!!!! Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude. I will kill for you. :D

Until then, I should party tonight, but I have papers to write... ewwwwwwwwww!
Body-shot night?
Mmmmm beeeeeeeeer... this is gonna be one for the books...

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPY!!!!!!!!!!

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It's raining men, haleluia, it's raining men, amen! [13 Apr 2004|10:51am]
[ mood | mellow ]

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooot! It's totally raining icy eighch two oooh... boooooo!

I'm sittin' here sippin' mah mint medley tea, listening to the soft sounds of Sarah McLachlan in my pajamas.

This is how rainy days are supposed to be spent, except the mistah should be here gettin' his snuggle on with me! :( Yay for seeing him last night tho! Wooo!

Well kids, I have class from 3.5 to 5 and dinner thievery with Allie, so I shall commence with the tunes and possibly some tv and napping. Yay for counting sheep midday! <3<3

I have a date on Thursday... I should get dressed up. <3

I miss JayJ... I miss all things JayJ. She should come to fun sometime. When do you get out of school killah? If I'm still up here, you should visit the RI. I'm up here until the 12th methinks... classes end the 6th for me. <3 <===[= stab my heart

Loves!!

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coooooooooooooooome ooooooooooooooooooooooover! [11 Apr 2004|10:32pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

emotional seesaw -

i can't find my keys :(
my phone charger went missing :(
i found it :)
it doesn't work anymore :(
pat's hitting on me :(
i miss evan :(
i played with a turtle :)
the turtle has to leave tomorrow :(
evan's going to be closer :)

i'm sad...

i had an amazing weekend tho. I ♥ evan.
after some crappy fighting
amazing
good show doooooooooooooooood. bloooooooooood!

i feel poooooopy.

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some announcements... [09 Apr 2004|07:24am]
[ mood | sick ]

Happy Birthday April!!!

CVS
DCFC & Ben Kweller show tonight
Evan after that
Evan's show tomorrow
bllllllllloooooooooooooooood + dooooooooooooooom = happy jill
Easter... at Evan's... :)
Back to this hell hole.

4 more weeks of freshman year.
3 more years of RWU.

Must put down payment on trip.
Must start saving for trip.
Must get a lot of money for semester abroad... yes. indeeeeeeeed.

my belly is angry and full of demons :p

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booooooooooooooooooomtown baby [08 Apr 2004|09:01pm]
[ mood | still trippin face yo ]

tonight was amazing. i finally got to eat my shrooommmsss. yes! i loved it. my stomach kind of hurts right now tho. I had a lot of fun.

i got a lot of green and the trippin' ball. wore the amazing hat... inside out, cool color way.

i am feeling weird. we also smoked a lot. a lot. a loaaaaaaaf... i know that was supposed to say lot or load, but i thought the word loaf wasin good company at that moment...

weird feelings since things have changed over there. I saw a few things before they happened. a lot of screaming faces, but that's good. fucking bunny... bak bak bak!

blooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood would be nice right about now.

Ok... i need to go die.

Deathcab show, smokin', and evan tomorrow. yay!

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm flesh! [05 Apr 2004|07:16pm]
[ mood | amused ]

After a long time standing in my own personal demise I am back... in black.

*ehem* Puppies from around the world??? I ♥ South Park

Evan came over for the weekend. We did some fun things... I'll scream for you baby. I got to play with kitties! That was awesome. Evjamin is awesome. We're awesome, once again. After a little lull, due to my dooooooooom.

I decided to start making shitty things, so that's what I'm doing... in fact. I might do that soon again. I'm done my 6 paintings. I'm kicking ass. I'm threatening people. I'm happy. Tomorrow will be gooooooooooooooood... roooooster.

Today was interesting. I actually did a lot of homework-type things at work. Had a funny experience with my boss involving my yelling poooooooop at him. I got my plugs, but only picked up my 6's. We had a guest speaker in Lit/Phil who served in Iraq. He was very informative and I rather enjoyed having that opportunity to ask some questions about this never ending terror. Sculpture class was productive, and my angel is ready for plaster... mmm... looks pretty bitchin' just as a chicken wire body and wire wings... soon to be plaster and fabric... it's gonna be pretty. And it's going to take forever.

BooHoo moment of the day - I walked thru the quad and noticed that all the grass was fenced off... all of a sudden visions of petting zoos, miniature pony rides, and dog shows (weeeeenie!) danced in my head... when I took a real second to think about it I realized that it was probably something un-fun, like resodding or laying grass seed. BOO for our darn grown-up institution. Where's the fun?

Tomorrow has many a fun thing in store for me. The mistah is picking me up. I'm getting my 10's.

I think that I am staying here... we'll see how many times that changes. I think that I am going to be able to get enough money to go on this trip. I thought of a bunch of other places to apply for a second summer job. I also thought about schooling in terms of what titles I want. I think that I can get all this crap:

A bachelor's of Fine Arts with a Core Concentration in Photography & Digital Media, a minor in Sculpture, and a minor in Creative Writing.

Sounds impressive enough...

The thought of getting an education degree constantly crosses my mind. I keep on remembering how much I wanted to teach all those years ago... I still kind of do. Maybe I can get an entry level job after college at a university that will pay for my classes in education. That would just ROCK. I could be a Photography teacher or a Graphic Design teacher or Digital Media(hybrid). That would be fabulous!

One of the super quotes of the day:
Allie - "I was like, 'I'm hungry, gimme the Jesus!'"
When we were talking about Communion and the little hosty things/wafers being a tasty treat... less tasty, more snacktacular during long services...

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There's either a hole in my shoe or my tears are soaking my socks... [31 Mar 2004|03:31pm]
[ mood | cold ]

What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight
Name:
Gender:
Your looks:Lot's of leather.
Your best friend:Someone no one else can see.
Your powers:No powers. Just guns.
Your beloved:A sexy vampire.
Your occupation:Villain.
Your ending:Sweet and romantic.
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


This makes me smile.

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...Dark
During Lovemaking You Act...Like a volcano, hot & steamy
Your Partner Is...Your master
Your Partner Has Said That You...Are a great lover
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote."I love your lips"
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


This is tooooooo weird.

I am cold and wet and at work. I am sad. I miss Evan. I want hugs. All's cool tho. I am going to go home, take a warm shower, PJ it up, tuck myself in and die. *sigh* Sounds grand, don't it? What's that? Dinner? Eh... I ate a big lunch. Unless I'm hungry I won't bother. I'm feelin' movie night.

booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

When it rains I lose all drive to do anything but snuggle. I'm a lover of warmth, not this arctic shit. *humph!*

ev.ery.thing will change... oo..OOO..oooooo [31 Mar 2004|10:10am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Last night was yummy. LivingRoom is ghetto. I am tired. You are not here.

First opener... did they even have a name?
SUCKED BEYOND SUCKAGE
Second... Scarlet
Wooooord. I didn't like their first song, but other than that... I could feel it. You get one woot!
Third... Black Dahlia Murder
I didn't like them at all. I wanted the lead singer to hit puberty and stop squeeeeeking, but what's that... now you're roaring? Aye Yaye Yaye!
Fourth... As I Lay Dying
YAYYYYYYYYYY! Way gooooood. You get two woots! I guess there's an added plus because I was firmiliar with their music. Put on a show. Yay! <3
Fifth... Every Time I Die
A-MA-ZING! So good... so much violence. Good time. Scream-along good time. Again, two woots!

New shirt... that's always a plus.

Evan = the shit.
Over and out. It's time for fooooooood! Then work... boooo!

I got my kill on... did you?

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Every time our lips meet it's like they're two halves to a whole... [28 Mar 2004|08:07pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Glorious!

This weekend was too hot for the hot-tub.

Friday - Evan picked Allie and me up, fun ass car ride with lots of caffeine. Snugggggggggggggggggle time! Woot woot!

Saturday - Didn't go to Breugger's. SLEPT SO MUCH. Fun fun fun fun! Evan's show... O MY GOOOOOOODNEESSSSSS so much BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! It was amazing! Evan's match was big... I'm sorry that Pricky LaRue was a cock monger. Dude... weapons, blood, masacre, ♥ &hreats; ♥ House of 1000 Corpses like whoa. Damn... good. Yarrrrrrrrr!

Sunday - nice and relaxing, toooo cuuuuuuute is the Evan. When it warms up I want to actually see the sun... SET! geeeeeez. Such a pretty spot tho, just like you! <3 <3 Ride home... face turned green... thru up at the rest stop... now I'm peachy. I watched a lot of parts of movies this weekend. I miss EEeEEEeEEeEEEEeeeeEEeeevan!!! Hehe! O wells... I'll talk to him soon!

Show on Tuesday - ETID (hells yeah!), As I Lay Dying (effin' AAAAAAA!), Scarlet, black blah blah blah death murder... whatever. Should be fun fun fun til my daddy takes the t-bird awaaaaaay.

AIM games... eh? boooooooooooooooyah!

Ahhhh, a breath of fresh air and sunbeams dancing on my skin. [26 Mar 2004|01:30pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Pulp Fiction cool as they come, with that likeable
seedy underbelly all interweaved with precision
of storytelling. you are a classic. you are
cool as a cucumber,distant, beautiful
intoxicating if a little violent.. you little
minx.


Which Quentin Tarrantino film do you belong in?
brought to you by Quizilla


Dude, it is such a nice day out, and where am I? AT WORK! Booooo! O wells, I am still thinking about outside and fields and frisbee and blankets with me wrapped up in them with Evan. Hehe... that's the gayest thing I think I ever could have said. Goooo MEEEEE! <-- gaywad extraordinaire

Last night was a riot. Drank 7.5 beers. Listened to mad punk (ahhh! hahahaha!). Sing alongs.. it's really funny how many songs I still know the words to. Watched Haggard or however you spell it. Royal Rumbled Pat's face with my fist. I SAW BLOOOOOOOOD! *ears perk* hehe! num num num! New friend Brandon, B.. but I can't have 2 B's. So he's Brandon. ummmms. I peeeeeeed so many times. Left cause I was tired. Called Trey 'cause I missed him. We hung out for a little. I got a new GUMMY BRACELET! wooot woot! It's red... and RAD. Crazy kids smokin' their crazy marijuana. NOT ME! Came back to my house, felt wicked sick. Called the Evan. Made myself throw up. Took a shower. Got upset. Called the Evan again. <3 <3 <3 <3 PASSED THE EFF OUT!

This morning I was insane. I was yelling to people and talking to the old men who were leaf blowing (I don't think they heard me). MOOOOOOed out the window, then MUUUUUUURRRRRed out the window 'cause Allie told me about Bryen's journal entry. Class. Fruit. Work. Water. Work. Work. NERMIN.

All I want to do is... DANCE DANCE!
See... I'm in SUCH a better mood when it's nice out. I <3 life... until the sun goes down... then I love bloooooood.

i blinked my eyes three years ago, where were you? [25 Mar 2004|11:19pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

why the fuck do i do it to myself it's like letting blood warm my soul.

wishing i were in your arms. there is no substitute.

truly yearning for my heart to beat in synche with every breath you take.

I drank too much tonight. I'm sorry.

I am in LOVE with Evan.

i want to die... with every finger i shove down my throat. i hope i throw the devil up. eviiiiiiiiiiiiiil. i hate myself right now.

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baked out of my skull... mmm apple pie.... south park like whoa! <-thoughts in my dome [24 Mar 2004|07:10pm]
[ mood | high ]

Ok, somehow this night turned from the abslide to pushups to bakin' out the room. all of a sudden dave showed up and trey was there and then steve and ian and allie and me baked out the rooooooom! What the hell is going on SOUTH PARk... tiimmmmmmmmmayyyy! hahahahahaha! STEWROIDS! this is sooo fucked! I love this show. I love timmay... mmm timmaaay! DINNER DINNER BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!

I am baked...
Fin

[24 Mar 2004|03:05pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Wow... life is a funny thing. I have all these things that make me want to sing at the top of my lungs in a car on a sunny day and I have all these things that make me want to crawl into my little nest of quilts and never wake up.

I was talking to Evan today and I think that I realized something mid-conversation. If anyone saw the movie Big Fish they'll know what I'm talking about. You know the whole Goldfish growing to the size of their surroundings thing? Well, I feel like that right now. In Rhode Island I feel like I have reached my full size. I don't grow here at RWU, I have nowhere to spread my wings and really fly. Back home I could go to a different place everyday of my life or simply see a movie with a good friend. I don't know if I'm the only one that misses that... that feeling that no matter what you do, as long as you're with someone that you truly love and care about endlessly, you're going to be just fine. I miss having friends. I think that the stormy weather that surrounds my every move discourages me. It makes me sad. I want friends. I want to be loved. I want to feel as unstressed as sitting in a hammock, sun grazing my toasted skin, sipping lemonade on the beach. The waves putting me to sleep.

*sigh* I think that I just need to get off of my ass and see what surrounds me. I am so stuck with the thought that there's nothing to do in this GODFORSAKEN state that I may be passing up some truly amazing things. If I have a car next year I think my problems will be calmed. I could go to shows. I could get the things I need. I could see the people I want to see and I could let the wind take me.

I fear that I will never find a friend up here that I can just sit around with and do nothing and have the best time of my life. I will never find anyone that will compare to who I have already been blessed with finding. I really really really like a lot of the people I have met up here, but I am just home sick. It's hard to have a best friend, a multitude of friends, and then come somewhere so far away from all of them and know no one.

Ok, enough feeling sorry for myself. I have great things going for me. I just wish I could use things to their full potential. I'm going to break out of this thin shell that I have created for myself. I am going to get up and dance. HELL YEAH! Effin' A... here comes the fun! I don't care if I have no one to go with me places anymore. I will make friends. Improve my relationships with the ones I have already and I will smile. A LOT.

pee ess i ♥ Evan! Thank you for the visit last night. Made my day! YAY!
get to seeeeee jayj & blooooooood on Saturday!
I have a smile on.

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[20 Mar 2004|05:10pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Thursday I went to the mall with my Bryan and laughed harder than I think I ever have. in.my.life. Dear me that boy makes me laugh. we were such assholes and I made the stupid GI Jane girl cry into her midget little hands.. ooo boooo hoooo... FUCK OFF. Then, we met up with the loverly miss sarah and wantched... dun dun dun... Bring it on AGAIN WHY???? I don't know, but I liked it... hehe. it had a skip on it, so I took it back and got a credit on my account.. woot woot!

Friday I went to the city with sarah and hit up Southy. Damn.. it was good to be back there... even just for the wee emo stare. I've seen VERY few emo boys all decked out like he was, but he was nice. :) Ummmmmmers. Then after that. I got a new CD and some post cards. Went in Jim's... but I did not EAT! That has never happened. I don't have much of an appetite recently... I think because I'm getting fat. It's all psychological. Umm. Then home with the 'rents... I think for some dinner, which I didn't really eat. THEN... Dawn of the Dead with Bryan and Sarah. I liked it... except ZOMBIES DON'T RUN! *sigh* Then to TJ's where... THE GERMAN KID WAS!!! WHat??? Daniel! Amazing! SO MANY HUGS! I haven't seen him since he was an exchange student in 11th grade! Amazing. He's looks so good! That's soo cool. I'm glad I got to see him. *hugs hugs hugs* Then home.

I am feeling better about my situation, but still want to die. Thank you Jamie for wanting and willing to kill for me. hehe. Maybe if it comes to that.

I went to my church for the hockey marathon. Saw everyone. Good to see my MONICA!!! THe love of my life. My Robin. hehe. Tara, KT... Chris, Nicky, Steph... the lot of them. <3s. Monz, KT and I are going over Tara's tonight for a little get together. Should be fun! I love themmmmmmm! Then home for some sleep. Vet implodes tomorrow. I fly out tomorrow.

BACK TO HELL
Shit.. I didn't get free Rita's yet today. Happy Spring.

I've tried and tried, but I can't seem to push the razor hard enough... [19 Mar 2004|01:00pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Wow... I've never met someone so conceited. I hope you drown in your own tears from a broken heart. DIE! Selfish asshole. BLAH BLAH BLAH... shut your face with my fist!

I am angry and the world shall suffer... "world" meaning YOU. FUCKER!

Gahhhhh... me me me me me me me ... o yeah and ME! DIE DIE DIE! I WILL KILL YOU.





Too much shit to do, but I'm not doing it.. I'm going to the city to shop... but I don't have ANY $... assholes.

FUCK EVERYONE.
Sincerely,
G

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[18 Mar 2004|06:11pm]
[ mood | hungover ]

St. Patrick's Day is synonymous with Jill's effin' drunk and loooooooves everyone... and BILLY ISN'T SPANISH Day... Yes'm. I had an amazing time.

University of Delaware hasn't seen that much fun since last time I was drunk there. Cat, Sarah, and I went down to visit the coochie larue. Green Jell-O shots made with cheeeeeeeep vodka and triplesec and LOVE. Sweetarts were toxic... like whoa. I LLOOOOOOVVVEEEE! Num Num Num! Hehe... fun things all over that shiiiit.

SOME OF MY FAVORITE THINGS:

*Cat makes out with random boy with a lot of hair in bathroom @ Nick & Joe's*
*Cat & I walk out of bathroom*
*Cat points at boy and pushes him up to the wall*
"What's your NAME!?!?!" - Cat

*6:30 AM talking about Sarah throwing up*
6:35 AM "Wait... I threw up?" - Sarah

"Go throw the throwup out at the Burger King dumpster." - Colettey
"I don't know where the FUCK the Burger King is!" - me
"It's down where you were smoking..." - Colettey
*I go downstairs where I was smoking and look around*
*I see no BK*
*tosses a bag of Sarah's vomit behind a flower planter outside of Nick & Joe's apartment*

Cat throwing up like an effin' WATERFALL

Naming everyone... Jazzercise??? WHAT THE WOOOOOORLD?
SOOOO MUCH FUN!

Ok, now I'm home, filled out application at Best Buy, ate TACO BELL with Sarah, going to mall with B, then movie night! Yay! Loves!

Why I love Bryan Joel Mascaro:
bryan likes it: Do you wanna go to Granite Run?
bryan likes it: Nobody will go with me and I want shoes.
Pepeshrimp: Yes.
Pepeshrimp: I neeeeeeed the mall for some homosexual reason
Pepeshrimp: I'm sure

but, of course... [17 Mar 2004|12:21am]
[ mood | swollen ]

Vampire
You'd bite their neck and drain their blood! Why?
Because you're a vampire like me! Whats that?
You're not a vampire? Well here's your chance.



Like I had to take a test to find that out!



I miss the Evan... :( but he's wonderful and I will be back in his arms on Sunday hopefully!

Tonight was low key, but a pleasant smile graced my swollen lips. Well, only one of them is swollen, but all's good in the neighborhood. Umm... some Real World with Cat and Bryan, then ANOES III with Bryan... sleepy, so I'm home. New CD's! YAY! New car! Ghettofab! I LOVE IT. Too bad I can't take it with me... hopefully the GHETTA will be fixed soon.

Woot woot! University of Delaware tomorrow for St. Patrick's drunken festival of fun... Green Jell-O shots will be made. I will drink a lot. I will get drunk and sleep on a futon. I will not be able to make out with my SEXY MUTHA EFFIN boy... O wells. Fun will be had by all. Much love dukes.

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